saundi

Your voice hits my ears like a beautiful not to a song.  You say all this stuff but its like a code for "I might just let you down once again".  You might as well just stop talking because everything that you say is empty.  There is no meaning in anything that you say because all of your word mean anything to me anymore.  You have said so much to me but there wwas no actions that you were soppoused to follow up on with this.  So can you tell me why you say these words and you waste your breathe because you can no longer get my hopes upon your empty word.  

Right now i feel like my life is just totally spiraling down into a puddle.  Just going around and around me, but im just standing there watching all of this happen.  What if i had known about it before it happened what if i could have stopped it from happening.  I mean what if i could have saved hime what if i could have kept my friend from losing someone close to her.  There are all of these what ifs in life that i could go on for hours and hours thinking about it. asking all of those questions.  Everyone always jokes about death and some people make it out to be an funny issue but i think that they do that because they to are scared of wha

Life is shity why i dont know.....  How can people just betray you because you act like an indivisual....  That mainly ruined my day and then i am having to deal with many other changes that are going on in my life.....  So i guess hince the name i am feeling quite psychotic and weird.....  Why do changes happen so fast i dont know......  i dont know a lot of things that happen to me in life......  well that is all for now....~*~*~Sandra Castle~*~*~